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[EDIT 8/31/05 08:16AM: Somehow, titles got turned off, and I lost the original title I had written. But, believe me, it was lame.]

Ok, how lame a title for this post is that?

I am starting fresh with this blog. I've tried journaling and blogging before, but haven't been able to keep up. And I always felt guilty about that. But I have this deeply rooted need to write - something - anything- as long as it is written.

So, here I am, once again.

A little about me would be in order, I suppose. I'm your basic, average, 33-year-old, white, Midwest, suburban male. I have a decent job as a computer geek, a wife and four cats. I'm not very athletic (something I keep intending to work on), and don't really enjoy sports much except for the occasional baseball or hockey game and on the rare occasion it shows up on cable, sailing. I like cars - but really only from a design angle - I know only the most basic stuff about engines and mechanics and things.

I love books and music and movies and photography. I would love to write novels, compose and play music proficiently, act, direct and take beautiful pictures. I am a decent writer, but I haven't been able to stay focused long enough to actually complete a story. I have composed one piece of music for the piano and used to play reasonably well with lots of practice. I acted in high school and college, and even directed a one-act play. I do take some pretty nice photographs every now and then - of all the things that I consider my hobbies, I would say that photography is taking the lead as far as my skills go - at least for now.

I love women. Don't take that the wrong way; I'm not a chauvinistic pig (though I do have my moments every now and again), but I truly love women. I love the way women look, the way they feel, the way they smell, the way they think. I get along better with women than I do men - my best friends are almost exclusively women. I'm not a "ladies' man" or a playboy; in fact, as far as sex goes, I would consider myself a little behind the curve with respect to partners and overall experience. That's certainly not from a lack of desire or fantasy - and I wouldn't say I'm unattractive - it's primarily from lack of opportunity. My female friends tell me that I am very much in touch with my feminine side. I have a nickname among my wife's friends - "womb-man." Sort of silly, I know, but also pretty cool.

I grew up Catholic, then declared myself agnostic in college and put my spiritual self on sabbatical for about 10 years. Boy, has that changed.

But, it is late, and I am having trouble focusing on the keyboard. And I have a big day ahead of me tomorrow. So I will bid you adieu and resume my ramblings with my next post.